okay , many things happened this week . Had english / chi paper today . It was kinda okay though .. hope can pass .

yes , i know , i've let everyone down . I've finally realised how much i've changed , not for the better , instead i've changed for the worst . i know i don't deserve forgiveness , chances so on and so forth .

i'm sorry for being such a person , i've finally realised what went wrong already . i will change .

firstly , i'm really sorry to my dearest friends :♥vic , ♥jun , ♠ jan , ♥Huijuan , ♥wanrong and ♥cynthia . yes , i've broke all of your hearts , your hopes for me for i know i've done many undesireable acts .

i know , u cared . despite many talks i had from you guys , i had not changed for i took chances for granted . i did not listen to advice and after awhile , i carried on with my old ways , and was getting from bad to worst . i apologise . i know i've hurt u all very deeply for u all have been trying to pull me out of this pool which i've been drowning in but i keep letting myself get drowned (for those who don't know what i'm talking about , it's okay ) . i made many empty promises to study and yet i failed to do so . i did not realised how much i've changed till u all told me what happened today . vic , i know i've hurt you really badly that i was a great disappointment .

~To all those out there , sorry for bothering u every weekend . ~
i'll learn how to be alone and not so dependant .

yes , i failed to study , instead , i went to play almost every week , after school etc .. i failed as a friend . i know , u all did not give me up as u still see hope in me , but there are times , i really felt that i had no more hope in myself ..

♥Victoria , ♥jun , ♠jan , ♥huijuan , ♥morgan n ♥cyn : thanks for being there for me through those really difficult times and not giving up hope despite letting u down . i know i've really created alot of trouble . i deeply apologise for what i've really done , i want to be a changed person . yes , for the better . end of april already , hope u all can help me ! i've decided what i wanted . i want to study and gain people's respect instead of being a gaming addict and letting my life go down this way .

once again , im really sorry .

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